[I went to bed at 8 PM with a headache. I have had little sleep the last week or so. I woke many times through the night, finally getting up at 7 AM. The dream seemed to continue each time after I went back to sleep. I rushed off to work and made no written notes. As I type this, it is 11:15 PM. Most is now forgotten. I finish typing at 1:00 AM]

Act 1, Scene 1 "The Meeting" I am at a gathering. It seems social, probably a party. I see her. She is pretty and she's my type. We start to talk. We seem to have hit it off. Later, I dare to try to kiss her. She does not object. I think she kisses back and we kiss some more. We talk more.

Act 1, Scene 2 "Commotion" It is later. Something has happened. Things are jumbled up and confused. She had a carry-bag with some stuff in it. I think it was clothes. After the commotion, she couldn't find it. I didn't know where it was either.

Act 1, Scene 3. "The Invitation" Later, I am on a staircase, looking for her stuff. She comes out of her room and sees me. I think I tell her what I'm doing. She says "Would you like to come in and help me search in my room?". I know as well as she that it couldn't be in there. I say "Sure.", and I go in. As I enter I think, "I don't have any protection.", then I think something like, "That's OK.". I think we sit on the bed.

Act 2, Scene 1 "Schoolmate It is later and I am in a bar. Todd Van'O. comes up to me, and acts as though we're friends. [We went to high-school together (18 years ago) but I all I know of him is his name and his face.] He offers me a drink. He has a whole bottle of whiskey on the bar. I thought that was odd. I recognize the shape of the bottle. I notice the brand name. [I remembered it when I went to work this morning.] I drink a shot or two. It tastes very good, like fruit juice. It doesn't taste like whiskey at all. [(Dave G.?)]

Act 2, Scene 2 "Unlikely Bed" Again, it is later. I seem to have just woke up. Todd is gone, and his whiskey bottle too. I find myself lying in a wheelbarrow! Right there in the bar. This seems a bit humiliating, yet no one seems to notice. I get out and stand up. I think I'd like to leave now before he comes back. I don't want to be rude, but I don't want to drink any more. Then I see him. Two guys are carrying Todd toward the door. He makes a gesture to them. It means, "Put me down. I will go peacefully, but permit me the dignity of leaving under my own power.". They let him down. I think he came my way before he left.

Act 2, Scene 3. "Drunk" I get in my truck and try to go home. On Cove road, just past Wayne Ave., I turn into a driveway on the right hand side. (I don't know why; I don't know who lives there.) I back out and drive away. I turn right onto Wayne Ave. I may be backing up. I see in the mirrors that I am very close to the parked cars. I am very close to sideswiping them. I try to inch away. I seem to have brushed one, but I think I get away without any damage. Now I realize that I am going to the wrong place. We moved from Wayne Ave. about 2 years ago! I decide I must be very drunk. I just want to park. I turn the corner and go toward Kent's house. Now I am on the motor cycle. I am up on the sidewalk. The next moment I find myself on the grass on the other side of the street. I see Kent and someone else. They are watching me with disbelief. I finally manage to bring the bike to a stop in the street, in a spot that will have to be close enough. I walk over to them. Kent looks at me and says that I look very drunk.

Act 3, Scene 1 [This may have been before Act 2 (maybe Act 1, Scene 4)] "The Search" I feel bad about her losing her stuff. I decide to go and look for it. I am outside, walking up a sidewalk. I see stuff on people's lawns. I see some baseball caps on one lawn. I pick one up for a closer look and decide that they probably belong to the people who live there. I put it down and move on. I see more stuff on another lawn. There is a carry-bag too. I walk up to it and decide that it must be her stuff. About then a car pulls up. Friends of hers get out and come over. They announce that they have found her stuff. I point out to them that I saw it first, but all I really care about it that she gets her stuff back.

Act 4, Scene 1 (maybe Act 1, Scene 5) "School Girl" I am back at a social gathering. [It may be the same place as in Act 1, Scene 1. It may even be the same party, but I don't think so.] A girl comes up to me and she is coming on to me, hard. She is pretty and she would have normally had no trouble but for the girl I met earlier. That's who I wanted to be with. This second girl was trying really hard. I kept telling her "No.", but she didn't stop. She tried to kiss me. I wouldn't let her. She tried to massage me. I wouldn't let her. She tried talking me into it, and for a second I thought, "Maybe I should give in; I seem to be on a roll.", but I quickly dismissed the thought. The first girl was there somewhere and it was her I wanted, so I kept saying things like, "All through high-school, you never bothered to talk to me." but really, it was only because of the first girl that I resisted at all. I didn't know what had changed her mind. Finally she gives up. Then I find the first girl. I figure she may have seen some of that and I was hoping she didn't just see the advances and miss the rejections. Some people are good at that. She wasn't mad at all. She must have seen a lot of it, maybe all of it. She said something like, "Why doesn't that girl know that you're seeing somebody?". Then I thought I should have just told the girl that, but I didn't really know that I was seeing somebody. As far as I knew, the first girl may have considered earlier just having fun or something and she might be done with me. I just wasn't going to take that chance. Now I am excited because the girl said that I am seeing somebody. That means that she considers us a couple now. Every thing is OK. Then she says "Would you like to get a drink?". I don't, but there's no way that I'm going to say "No." to her. I say "Sure.".

Act 4, Scene 2 "The Slip" We arrive at some bar. (A different bar from where I was earlier.) She says she'll be right back and walks off. Some of her friends have come along. There are 3 or 4 of them. They sit in a booth and I sit at a table, which is next to the booth but elevated. Someone asks what I would like and I remember what I had at the bar with Todd and I ask for that. There is a drink (a shot, I think) in front of me, and one in front of her seat, and there is a third thing in the center. I lean toward it to get a closer look. I see that it has fluid in it. My mouth seems to touch it and so I drink. It's as though it were a reflex. There are only 2 or 3 mouthfuls there and when I have about half of it in my mouth, it occurs to me that this must be something that she and I are supposed to drink together! Now I wonder what to do. (I haven't swallowed yet.) No, I can't put it back. Now I notice the shape of the thing. It is like a heart with the point facing away and the two rounded sections toward the chairs so that we can drink, cheek to cheek, as it were.

Act 5, Scene 1 "Together" Much later now. She and I apparently have a place together. It looks like an apartment. She says something about "eating for two" and I say "What?". She tells me she's pregnant. I am excited. I think about getting married. [I think that, even in the dream, I had to think a moment to figure out if that we were not already married.] I want to. I wonder if I should ask her now.

Act 5, Scene 2 "The Trip" I go into the future and I see us as we are after having been married for years. I only get a quick glimpse. I think we have more children. I intentionally don't try to look too close. I just see that we are together and married at this (much) latter date, then I come back to ask her. Then I wonder just what would be the best time. Now things get mixed up. I had originally intended to just come right back to right after she told me and then ask her. But I find my self scanning through the years glimpsing at different times.

Act 5, Scene 3 "The End" [This part is so disturbing that I thought that I would leave it out. it must, after all, be a mistake, maybe part of a different dream, a different person, anything (and if I leave it out, in time, it'll be forgotten).] I stop at a certain point in time. More than a little later than the point where she told me (about being pregnant). I come into the room. She is lying on the floor. Near her, a man is lying facing her. She is talking about getting rid of me so that they can be together.

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